August 1, 1944

Kitty, I fear that I am becoming a bundle

Of contradictions: A person split in two.

Imposed upon from without and within, I am

A clam, sealed but lacking precision, with

The ocean rushing in; my tender flesh

Is drowned.  Inside, I fight against a voice

That screams mockeries of my mother, father,

Favored sister.  My better half is silent.

I often touch my budding breasts, hoping

That I will grow into the statue, Venus.

But well I know that I may never live 

To see the day my body blooms and thrives. 

Oh! What I could be if none like me

Were left in this world! 

Yours, 

Anne